Random thoughts..

There are many things that I want to blog about since last week but I haven't got the time to do so...

Recent happenings caused me to hate irresponsible and selfish men. So I feel a little resentful at this moment.

I remember Pastor Tan shared 2 weeks ago that Eve was created to be Adam's Helper. So the instincts of women is to help men to fulfill their destinies in God. However, many men didn't have a vision for themselves.. So, many women turned to church, wanting to carry the vision of the Pastor by helping the pastor. How true!!! I think I always have a tendency to want to help men. Maybe I've been helping too much. I won't want to help incorrigible men anymore.

Been thinking a lot lately too.. I know I've become more and more selfish after going through all those hurts. I don't want to put others before self. I think my previous experiences had turned on the protective gears to shield me from anything more than myself. God, I want to lift these all up to you and be able to be selfless again.

Educator's meeting with Pastor Mike Connell was very inspiring and refreshing. I really felt that passion for teaching all over me again. I love my kids. I want the best for them. Pastor said scolding is a way of showing our frustration by using abusive words to shut them up. I hope I can stop scolding and use firm words that cause convictions in the hearts of my pupils. Help me Lord, I pray.

Overcoming disappointments.. I guess I have many. And they are really hindering my intimacy with God. I recognised that I feel tired spiritually. Really feel like giving up but yet God seemed to be pulling me back by the messages that was preached recently. What else do I need to do?